Listen, that guy has made me happy and I have no apologies for it. He has made me happy. All the while I was with him, I never cried, like cry, but I know that I have been in relationships with older men, men who are older by 20 years.
I have dated a guy who is older than me by 20 years because then I used to believe you need a father figure in a relationship, you need someone who can help you, build you, people who can control you. I have dated a guy who is 20 years older than me and he never impacted anything in my life. He never did anything for me. Mentally he never. He abused me, he lied to me.
I have dated a guy who is ten years older than me. It didn't work. I dated a guy who is eight years older than me. I have never dated a guy who I am older than. This is actually the first I tried it.''
''I used to see a guy who is thirty years old as a child. I used to see guys who are thirty years old as babies because I am used to dating my grandpas, grandfathers, thinking that's the best decision for me. But, all these grandfathers, what they do is demoralise me, made me understand that I am not special, made me understand that there is nothing in me, that the strength that I feel that I have, I don't have it.''
She broke into tears and said; ''I decided to try with a younger person''.
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